Saturday, October 9, 2010

Confession

bg org lain, nk confess yg kite suke kat seseorg mmg susah....mcm2 perasaan pn ade like malu, segan and so on...somehow, aku rase senang je...maybe sbb dh slalu wat kot....sampai dh jadi habit..huhu... i define myself as someone yg senang suke kat org tp cepat je x ske kat org gaks...camno tuh... maybe sbb x ske pendam perasaan ni lame2 kot....

most of them slalu ny akan jadi kawan bile aku confess..ni yg x best nih... org ske kat die, alih2 jd kawan je... hampeh tol...huhuhu...x sesuai gitu... bile la nk jumpe 'the one' nih? or maybe i should stop doing this....let other people start rather than myself... tp lambat r nk tunggu..huhuu....xde kesabaran tuh la....

tp bile org lain start saying yg die suke kite plak, aku mesti rase semacam...rse mcm x best r...maybe ni kot perasaan mereka bile ade org admit ske kat kite...either kite suke blk or x...slalu ny x kot.. hahahha.... so far la...mesti bile dh x suke tuh , aku tend to avoiding them..x kire r in any ways pn....ade yg faham bahase... n ade gaks x mmg x paham2 bahase..hahhaha....jahat ny aku nih....

well, itulah kehidupan...x semua bende yg kite nk kite dpt, kan... usaha n tawakal, redha dgn ape yg tuhan dh set kan utk kite....maybe die nk tunjukkan kat kite org tu bkn utk kite, n maybe ade yg lebih baik utk kite tp kite still xtau or x jumpe lg...harap2 masih ade lg lelaki yg berkualiti utk kite diluar sane that has not been taken yet.......heheh...

Thursday, October 7, 2010

Opss...I did it again..

yeah...again n again...bile nk stop nih? can't help it la... everytime nk bersara je, mesti aku wat all over again... huuu....ssh tol kan klau dh jd habit....hope this will be the last one.....n kekal..heheh...
zaman skrg ni, dh x kesah dh....sbb what's left, isn't the very best nor perfect.....but that has kept me alive...

Monday, October 4, 2010

Weddings

Don't we all love weddings?... well i don't.. i mean recently...when u get too many invitations from ur friends saying that they getting married, it means that yours is just around the corner...yeke? supposedly like that....hmm....but as for me, i don't know just yet...well obviously coz i'm not in a relationship....huhu...cian ny kat diri sndri...

there are 2 things i've noticed this raya....1)flat screen tv & 2) babies...is it me or this year just the right time to have babies? weird. i can't believe my friend is already with baby..and me? stil the same..x kan nk maintain jer...for how long? hmmm.....

it's not that i've been avoiding weddings..it's just that for the past few years, i went to the wedding ,alone... nowadays, dh xde sgt g dgn kwn2..mesti dtg dgn gf @ bf kn.... i'm getting used to it (being alone)... dh x kesah dh....


: penting sgt ke attend weddings nih? nak kene beli hadiah la....xpn kene hulur duit....

Sunday, October 3, 2010

Marie Digby - Stupid For You

It's not everday
That I find a person quite like you
Perfect every way
I finally found the nerve to confess that it's you - that I want
I don't care if I act a fool
I would damn near beg for you !
Put aside, all my pride
So don't keep me hanging here
Cause this girl is falling stupid for you..
Stupid for you..

The proper thing to do
Is for me to act like a lady and wait
For you to make the first move
But I don't think you're getting the point
That it's you - that I want
I don't care if I act a fool
I would damn near beg for you
Put aside, all my pride
So don't keep me waiting here
Cause this girl is falling stupid for you!
Oh, oh stupid for you

Why's it always feel like I am
Chasing love when nothing's there
And here I go just making the same mistake...

I've fallen stupid for you.. 

p/s : if only....

Belum mase ny lg...

tau x Tuhan sedang menguji kite? bile kite nak sesuatu ssh sgt nk dpt walau pun segigih mane usaha kite... today i've learnt sumthing from a friend. she's married and already have a very cute daugther...to me, she has everything that every woman dream about...of course la aku pn nak kawin and also nk anak... she said sume org pn ckp mcm tu kat die.. ttp die plak ckp die nk ape yg aku ade tp die masih xde iaitu pekerjaan... as for her mmg ssh sgt nk dpt keje..she applied sume jenis keje n x memilih tp still x dpt2 gak... ye r..dh ade anak kot.. expenses pn mesti r bertambah kn...mesti r teringin nk pegang duit sendiri, shopping brg anak... for ur info, die mmg x penah pn keje lps abis blaja...betul la die kate Tuhan ni mmg nk uji sejauh mane kite berusaha nk dpt kan ape yg kite nk sgt2...huhuhu....

so for those who still unmarried n looking forward to, don't ever give up trying n searching what's best for us...n most important is we should be grateful n thankful of what we already have....huhuu....

Please remind me how to be happy...

This year considered boring to me...busy with work, have no time for entertainment, less outing... hmm... I don't know how i've got this feeling...it's weird.. i can't believe my life could be this way...but anyways, i don't regret doing it..it's my choice after all...my darker side has take into control...but still people thinks i'm such a good person...they should get themselves lasik treatment so that they can see clearly...huhu...

i know i've been avoiding some people...i don't know why.. all i know, one day when i woke up, i just figured i don't like what i have right now, x kisah r sesape ke...nk wat camno? dah aku x ske, x kn nk pakse2...paling pantang r kalau org pakse aku wat sumthing that i really don't like...despite doing that, i felt nothing...rse mcm jasad je yg ade tp perasaan sume dh xde...just like a corpse..hahha..

being happy wasn't in my dictionary anymore...maybe i don't deserve to be...maybe this is a punishment for all my sins...i know life is too short.. we don't know when we're going to die...i wish that i still have time to enjoy my life...